Million Miles

Somebody told me once that
Patience is a virtue
And true love is worth waiting for
Although it might just hurt you

And if it comes right back,
That means it’s truly destined
I promise to hold back the tears,
Never say never

And you know i'm thinking of you
All through out your endeavours
And if its part of His plans,
One day we’ll be together

A few things last forever,
So I write this poem
A lot of times, you won’t miss it
Right until it’s gone

And though I soldier on,
These feelings in my heart
Will never change
‘Cos I loved you from the start


song's revolvin in my head. think had it on repeat on my ipod while in the hosp tadi. decided i am taking a looooong haul break from bloggin to. and i am off to the hosp again after this. kinda wanna stay by nenek's side til she's discharged so sorry if i am not online next few days yea... til nxt or somewhere new. bye.

Still

a lil confused and triffled disappointed with myself.

if only...

its still u. heh. but it aint me =(. haha.

might be goin on a hiatus.. again. haha. we'll see...

Mimpi Selamanya

Aku terlanjur
Ku terlanjur sayang
Menyayangimu...
Sayang mengapa
Bukan hanya aku
Yang merindukanmu...
Selalu...
Terbagi...

Mungkin kau bukan
Yang bisa kumiliki
Selamanya..
Mungkin kau hanya
Akan menjadi milik
Selamanya...

Aku sendiri
Ku sendiri lagi
Dan memikirkanmu...
Mungkin saja kau bukan
Bukanlah yang ku tunggu
Selama ini...
Di hati...
Di jiwa...

Mungkin kau bukan
Yang bisa kumiliki
Selamanya..
Mungkin kau hanya
Akan menjadi milik
Selamanya...

things happened. alot has been said and a secret has been revealed. i jus dun wan ppl to get hurt. anyway i jus like this song and i hope people wont get the wrong ideas. its not bein interpreted the way u think it is. people think differently and by god, u all know i think waaaay differently then any other.

i still care sweets. heh but i am not one to hold u back and i promised remember? and havent i always kept my werds?

to someone else, thank you for not bein a bitch abt everythin. i know u found out abt this blog already babe. we're frens no? and yea, i am an ass. heh. never denied it and pls cont NOT callin. hahaha. i hope u understand why i am this way.

to Din who i know dunno abt this blog, hahaha. screw u bro. stop comin over drunk. i am out of excuses why my bedsheet smells weird or why i have to change it every 2 days. heh.

4 more weeks... soon i am gone again for another 2 years. oh yea, parents sellin house...

You're A God

I am back from my lil trip to the "wild" side. heh.
it was interestin... 7 guys and 4 gals... 2 couples and it didnt turn into an orgy. lol.

Guys:
me - on the outs. sigh. lol
Yusdi - jus out of a 2 year rship
Din - FIRST divorcee!
Budi - jus out of a 6mth rship
Fami - jus hopin to score with a gal. wahaha.

Couples:
Fazli & Maya - 2 years and damn... bila tunang?
Chan & Hana - 8mths and goin... hmmm... chaotic?

Girls:
Linda - air stewardess fren of Hana *(6,5,6)
Min - air stewardess fren of Hana *(5,6,5)
* = (face /10, figure /10, character /10)
yes i am bias. so sue me.

anyway... the trip opened my eyes to somethin i didnt really realise... i CANT have a gal i really care about as my gf. i turn into a wuss whenever i do. sad huh? wahaha. and yes i am on a high right now cos i jus listened to some of the acoustic jammin stuff and i sounded good. usually i cant sing for nuts...

ok i am bein prasan here. heh. but... if u do got the time, listen to them and gimme some reviews on msn eh? take note, the feelings in the songs are/were real. haha. but good thing is, i AM passed most of the emo stuff now. got overloaded with too much jiwangness this weekend til i am jus numb/sick with it all. haha.

Sampai Menutup Mata
i love this song cos it is damn true thus its the 1st i attempted solo...


Aku Bukan Untukmu
i know i sound weird but it was 2am and eveyone was just bein weird and sweets dun get the wrong idea...


Ruang Rindu
Chan on vocals... for his dear lovely airstewardess gf, Hana. heh. happy bro? and me on guitar of course.(yes must add the of course part)



Izinku Pergi
i know this song is kinda very softy but... i kinda liked it and yes that IS me on vocals and guitar. again, dun assume. haha.


Menghapuskan Jejakmu
Fazli on guitar and yes i know i sound sengau but i am "feelin" this song so yea i insisted i sang it. heh.


thats not all. there are other songs but i havent uploaded them.. theres ungu's Tercipta Untukku and Letto's Sandara Hati but 5 songs is abit too much sudah. heh. if u want to dload, ask me and i will send. (shameless me huh?)

Masih

Dan bila kau harus pergi
Jauh dan takkan kembali
Ku akan merelakanmu bila kau bahagia
Selamanya di sana walau tanpaku (u know i will)

Ku akan mengerti cinta (u know i do)
Dengan semua yang terjadi
Pastikan saja langkahmu tetap berarti

Bisakah aku tanpamu? (i dunno)
sanggupkah aku tanpamu? (i already set u free)

Sehangat pelukan hujan,
saat kau lambaikan tangan
Tenang wajahmu berbisik
Inilah waktu yang tepat tuk berpisah

Selembut belaian badai
saat kau palingkan arah
Jejak langkahmu terbaca
Inilah waktu yang tepat tuk berpisah

Ku akan pahami cinta (i really do)
Dengan apa yang terjadi
Pastikan saja mimpimu tetap berarti

*Aku tak pernah
mengharap kau tuk kembali (i think maybe)
Saat kau temukan duniamu
Aku tak pernah
menunggu kau tuk kembali
Saat bahagia mahkotamu, (as long asu are happy)
bila kedamaian slimutmu

Jangan kau kembali (if u find someone new...)


in short, i love u and i understand. heh. if u love someone, set them free so they can be who they are meant to be. if they come back, u kno its meant to be so some day come back yea? heh. seriously, thank u for the beautiful memories and those moments of eternities. i am still here but unlike ur ex-s i wont stalk or bugger much. heh. if the position eva opens up, remembr me baby cos honestly i'd say "welcome home" anytime. love u.